Humility: Humble Pie (Character Trait #3)

Scanning through Pinterest (my unfortunate, tragic, yet amazing new time wasting interest), I came across this quote and laughed, almost spewing coffee all over my Mac... "I'm Awesome at Being Humble."

Though I wouldn't ever really say this out loud, I realized this week that my brain sometimes thinks this. Really, such an evidence of pride in my life.

Pride. This thing keeps coming up. In the Bible Study with students on campus, in my discipleship time, during sermons, through quotes, its everywhere. Being an advertising major, I get it. God is advertising the great character trait of Humility, and I am sitting up and taking note. God, as always, has skillfully broken through the clutter of the world, and revealed a pithy and true message to my life this week, and I, like a good consumer, am convinced that I need it.

Micah 6:8-He has told you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?

What does the Lord require? To walk humbly with your God. The God that claims me. The God that doesn't need me for his work. yet because he loves me dearly, includes me. The God whom I serve and who I need, and who calls me his own.  

That's it. 

I've been realizing this week, that I add to what the Lord requires. I add being more holy, having a successful ministry, leaving a legacy and impact, reaching the world, changing hearts and lives, giving spiritual wisdom and guidance., knowing more of the Bible, planning an amazing future. Focus like this causes pride to seep. I actually believe I can do all these things, whether Christ strengthens me or not. Whether my life is hidden in Christ, or not. Whether I'm a part of the vine or not. Oh that terrible illusion of pride that I can do it alone!

C.J. Mahaney defines humility as “honestly assessing ourselves in light of God’s holiness and our sinfulness.”  

Taking an honest assessment of my life, I realize, that pride seeps rears its ugly head in ways that make me boast about my strengths, not my weaknesses, and then hide when I am weak. It makes me try to prove I'm right, instead of loving others well.  It makes me critical and comparative, either thinking I'm too great, or thinking I'm so below that standard that even self focused inadequacy becomes pride. 

I also realized something else. Its easier to be humble when success has happened in your life and harder when life serves you disappointment or heartache or failure. This week, through a series of events, I felt like a failure at things I'm normally a pro at. And, because I didn't humble myself before Him, God, in his gracious love, humbled me. He reminded me, Ministry is not about ministry success, its about Jesus.

If Jesus is not my focus, I'm living a skewed view of the life of grace given to me in Jesus redemptive work on the Cross.

Though working on all those things listed above can be a good thing, if its done for my glory, it means nothing. If my life is truly now hidden in Christ, I will reflect Christ, not myself, and really, would rather people see Him than my ugly pride anyway. I think I’m starting to buy into and understand humility.

Here’s what Tom Yeakley's book on Kingdom Character regarding Humility says:

• Humility is the doorway to growing in Grace. Grace is not freedom to do as we want, but power to live as we ought.
• Prayer acknowledges that we can't do something on our own.
• Measuring and counting results, though not always sinful, can reflect pride in our lives.
• If we are fearful that God may ask of us something that would be difficult, we show a lack of understanding in our identity.
• When we are praised or complimented..."Thank you for the compliment" or "Thanks for those kind words" will go a long way to develop humility and keep the focus where it should be.

So I'm left with this slogan branded in my brain.  “What does the Lord require? To walk Humbly with your God.”  

Here I am, on the path of humbleness, fueled by Christ. One day I will look at life, and really not see myself at all, but only Jesus. Not because of me, but because of his transforming power. 

And I think I should re-post the Pinterest quote but change it to this:

God is Awesome at Humbling Me.

Put that on a T-Shirt and wear it to the county fair.

This Blog Brought to you by Jesus and Ice Cream,  both of which go great with a slice of humble pie.

Chilvary: Dead or Alive

Most of the time, I think I am someone that can believe that there are still good men in this world. Granted, it took me most of college to believe I could trust men, but I never doubted that good men existed.

I have thought however in the last few years, that they seem to be a dying breed. Men of courage, men that lead, men that stick up for what's right, men that follow through with what they say they will do. With the number of men that don't have great father figures and the gender confusion that seems to be happening all around me, with more video games than building tree houses, and more entitlement than humility, I sometimes get stuck in a rut that chivalry, just might be...(gasp)... dead?! My sister along with multiple other women I know have sworn on multiple occasions that chivalrous, good men, do not exist anymore. Are we jaded or is it true?

I mean, according to dictionary.com, chiv·al·ry means the following:

1.the sum of the ideal qualifications of a knight, including courtesy, generosity, valor, and dexterity in arms.

2.the rules and customs of medieval knighthood.

3.the medieval system or institution of knighthood.

4. a group of knights.

5. gallant warriors or gentlemen

Interesting right? I mean besides those reenactment groups for the Medieval times or Rennasaince festivals, rarely do I see a group of 'knights' strolling around my neighborhood rescuing damsels in distress, fighting off dragons, or lifting intensely heavy swords to fight evil with. 

However, I love the first definition and the qualifications of a knight : Courtesy, generosity, valor and dexterity in arms... (anyone else want to chuckle with me over that last one? haha, I seriously laughed out loud when I read that).

However, even though there aren't droves of  knights walking around acting all knightly and such, I think, how fitting that there are not. These kind of men are few and far between and should be. Their rarity makes them all the more honorable.

So, with that said, I have witnessed modern day knights the last few weeks that are worth mentioning and have given me a renewed hope that chivalry is far from dead. Here's to you valiant men, that have made an impression on me that there are still good men out there and have made me even more encouraged to not settle for anyone less than knight-quality.

* Here, here...To the pizza waiter that took the time and effort to walk my friend and I to our cars in the downpour by releasing an outdoor umbrella from its stand, fording a river in the middle of the parking lot, and getting soaked in the process.

* Cheers to the many men the last few weeks that have courteously opened doors, carried boxes to and from my car, helped me move extremely heavy furniture from my apartment to my new place with their "dexterity of arms' and all with a smile and a willing heart to do so.

*Shout out to the multiple  men in the college ministry that have invited girls to bible studies and events with the only intention of wanting them to experience joy and growth in Christ. Who have had the courage to say no to late night study sessions to guard women's hearts more than the women even know they need. And have said we will live different from the world to show that chivalry is still alive and well.

Men of Chivalry, I salute you. And thank you. For setting the bar and giving me a reminder that their are still knights in undercover armor that exist today. For being courageous, strong, valiant. For fighting dragons that say being a gentleman is old fashion. For being the example.

This blog brought to you in part by the pizza guy's wet shoes.

Integrity: Giving back that piece of Robe (Character Trait #2)

 According to the Merriam-Webster online dictionary, Integrity is currently in the top 1% of words looked up and is the 14th most popular word on Merriam-Webster.com. Why is that? I think it's because people want to see integrity, they want to have integrity, but it's not always an easy word to define.


According to the Growing Kingdom Character book by Tom Yeakley, it is who you are when you think you are alone, or consistency regardless of context.  In my own definition, it is the consistency of your character that causes people to trust your leadership.

For someone that follows Jesus though, I think its not only integrity with people, it means integrity with God. After all, God sees everything and knows our heart. Acts 24:16 says, "So I strive always to keep my conscience clear before God and man."

Yeakley put out some challenging questions and statements.  Here are a few things that I'm challenged by from his writing and what I've learned about integrity:

• Are you a person who keeps your word?
• Are you developing behavior patterns of integrity or dishonesty in life? 
• When you say you will call people back, do you?
• Do you embellish stories in ministry to make them sound better or put a great spin on them?
• Are you verbal processor? If you are when you discuss things regarding decisions or people that leave the impression that others view as a firm decision or let them know with a disclaimer that you are processing?
• Dishonesty in the small, daily issues of life can create a character flaw that eliminates us from finishing well.

As I studied this, I also studied the story of  David sparing Saul in the cave. In this story, Saul is trying to kill David because of jealousy over his favor with the people. Saul enters a cave to relieve himself (sometimes the Bible cracks me up) and it happens to be the same cave that David and his men are hiding in. David cuts off a piece of Saul's robe at the urging of the men loyal to David. Afterward, the Bible says "David was conscience-stricken for having cut off a corner of his robe." So he goes out and talks to Saul and reasons with Him to the point that Saul is convicted and says "“You are more righteous than I."

This shows me a couple things. Integrity does count in the little things. Integrity is something that gets to peoples hearts. Integrity has to come by acting on the promptings of the Holy Spirit to do the right thing, say the right thing, and act in honesty in the right way.  And a man of integrity can be trusted as a leader.

I pray that the Lord would move me to be sensitive to the promptings of the Spirit to act rightly. I pray that integrity would be how I lead. That one day they might say about me what they said about David. That I shepherded the women on campus with integrity of heart; with skillful hands he led them.

The other thing that has been neat in this journey is that I feel like God keeps sending me back to life school in some ways. I read these things, and I think "Ay yi yi, I have so far to go to have this kind of integrity.

But the Holy Spirit prompts my heart saying "That's not the point. What I want you to know, dear girl,  is that I lead you like this. I lead you with honesty, With complete integrity. I follow up and follow through well. I am consistent to lead you in all contexts the same. And that does make me want to follow Him and Trust Him. And it starts to make me see how Integrity is so important to the character of a leader.


This Blog brought to you by a little piece of Robe returned by David.

Gym Day #2: Funny Scenarios

This week my mom told me about how she saw a lady in her yoga class struggling and she thought "poor lady." Then at the end of her workout, she put her glasses on and realized it was a mirror and the lady was her.

This made me laugh really hard and I reminded myself that at the gym, laughing is a must.


With this in mind, I go to my second complimentary session with a Personal Trainer at the gym which I just joined last week.. Brian (the PT guy) makes me do jumping jacks, some kinda of wierd seal jumping jacks where I had the urge to bark like a sea lion loudly, lunges, and other shenannigans. As Brian goes on to teach me about some wierd pull ups, things start to get fuzzy. I am hearing him and thinking, this is wierd.  And then they get really fuzzy, and I start to get dizzy. He's explaining, I'm trying hard to focus and then I say something to the affect of "uh..i think I'm going to pass out." Brian makes me sit down as I refocus and drink some water. Feeling defeated a little, I have the urge to run out. But, I stay drink my water, and force myself to listen to Brian tell me about the new dog his wife and He got this week.

At this point, I think I've passed out because I see something that only could happen in an unconcious state. I see a middle aged asian man jump from the floor to a platform about 5 feet off the ground. Then I realize, I have not passed out and this guy legitally is jumping from platform to platform made of excercise balls and mats, combined with a slack line. huh. interesting. He looks like he should be in the Cirque de Chine in Dollywood.

At this point, I continue the work out and finish with victory flags. We'll see if anything happens Friday when I try it again.

This Blog brought to you by my mom's rendition of the Michael Jackson classic "Man in the Mirror."

Love:Sacrifice Required (Character Trait #1)

This week I watched a movie called "Paper Heart."  Set up documentary style, Charlene Yi is on a quest to discover what love really is. She interviews all sorts of crazy characters and eventually falls in love herself with Michael Cera (that kid from Juno). Though entertaining, it wasn't the best movie ever, but it did have a quote that stood out to me in light of studying "Love" as the first character trait in Tom Yeakley's book. The quote was given by an author who writes romance novels. Not that I think romance novel writers are anywhere near knowledgeable on love, but I think this one in particular was on to something:

"In an 'HEA ending'... happily ever after...There's always something where the characters are sacrificing...one is sacrificing for the other and that's their sign that they're really in love with that person. So at some point the character has to make some kind of a personal sacrifice..."

Well said, romance novel lady, well said. 


Isn't their something in the human spirit that recognizes that real love cannot exist without sacrifice? Not just romantic love, but all love. The reason being is sacrifice equals selflessness and the opposite characteristic of  selfishness seeks only what can be gained for one's own good rather than thinking of the other person. That is not love. But a heart that truly loves others will sacrifice for the other person. After all, isn't that the example of Christ's love for us?  Wasn't he the ultimate sacrificing of self for our life to come ? And isn't He the one who IS love to start with?

The apostle Paul should have been in that documentary. I mean, that guy had a lot to say about love. As I studied 1 Corinthians 13 as part of my research on love in leadership, I was blown away by the Amplified version of this passage. Some of the phrases cut to the heart, i mean things like 

• "if I have [sufficient] faith so that I can remove mountains, but have not love (God's love in me) I am nothing (a useless nobody).
• Love endures long and is patient and kind; 
• Love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, 
• Love is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.
• Love is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); 
• Love is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. 
• Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking;
• Love is not touchy or fretful or resentful; 
• Love takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].
• Love does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.
• Love bears up under anything and everything that comes.
• Love is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].
• Love never fails, never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end. 

Wow. Complete and utter conviction on the pride and the believing the best of others. But the encouraging thing to me was that throughout that passage God reminded me that the word love could be substituted for "God's love in us." How true that I can't love like this without Christ in me! And how amazing that all these things mentioned above is how God loves those who know and follow Him. 


And speaking of following, Yeakley's made some great points on love and leadership.

"Leaders who love will always seek the highest good for other people instead of using them as tools to accomplish a goal."

This point is so true! Likewise, Yeakley says that:

"Leaders who lack love tend to have a performance based value system rather than a love-based system built on the Grace of God."

As a leader in a ministry, I need to really take into account my heart and my motive. Is my goal only to have successful Bible Studies, people "doing" campus ministry well? Or am I basing my goals on sacrificing for the good of those I lead, desiring the best for those that are growing, and being with them even if campus goals don't get met. Goals are not nearly as important as people.

And truth be told, the leader's I've wanted to follow have not been the ones that have taught me tons of ministry skills, or been impressive by their ministry knowledge. But they've been the ones that loved God well, held goals with an open hand, and loved me through sacrificing things to help me in the process.

"If we focus our life on love, our leadership will be honoring to God and attractive to others." ~Tom Yeakley

As I've processed this, I realize sacrifice it so key to loving well those around us. I'm challenged to think, how can I sacrifice more for my family, the girls I disciple, my friends?  How can I encourage and build up with a value for the person, not a value for what they accomplish? How do I react if something or someone fails? How do I receive the prodical when they've run? I have a choice, to look for my gain, or to sacrifice for their gain.

I am challenged by my lack of love in evidence in my selfishness, but encouraged that God's love in me will have a positive impact on the world.. And ultimately it always comes back to looking into the face of Jesus, the one who defined love by sacrifice, and asking for wisdom to be more like Him. I mean after all, I can bank on it, cause love, or rather God's love in me, never fails, becomes obsolete or fades out to ending. And that is something worth seeking after.

This blog brought to you by Romance Novel Lady and her bright pink Barbuchi lipstick.

Character in Leadership: Post 1 (Intro)

A few weeks ago I was given the book "Growing Kingdom Character" by Tom Yeakley, a man who has coached and developed leaders for more than 30 years internationally, focusing on Christ-like character.

 The book starts with talking about how important character is more important than skills acquired in leadership. That its the character of a person, not skill development that is the most strategic focus of growing in leadership. It then goes chapter by chapter with different leadership qualities.

Yeakley state that the foundational character qualities are

• Love
• Integrity
• Humility
• Servanthood

The supporting character qualities are:

• Purity
• Faith
• Patience
• Self Control
• Teachability
• Courage.

As I explore each one of these by reading the chapter, exploring the verses through a study in the book, praying through the prayer points and excercising these qualities, I plan to share insights throughout the summer. It should be an exciting journey!

Do you agree that Character is more important than skills in leadership?


This entry brought to you by a lazy saturday where blogging just seemed like the right thing to do.

Hope, not Disappointment

"Those Who Hope in Me will Not Be Disappointed." ~God


Over the last few weeks, I've thought about this alot. Truthfully, my first thought was "yea right...i don't believe this is true."

I know that's true in my head, but I've wrestled with believing it in my heart. I started thinking about this verse and making a short list in my head of things I've been disappointed in. Lack of certain friends and family having a saving faith in Christ, lack of funding as I continue in ministry, lack of a spouse after praying for many years, lack of community that I've prayed for, and most recently, not being able to go to a summer program with some of the key students I work with.

Have I been disappointed? Yes. If I'm honest with myself...I have.

So How then can this statement really be true?

In my praying and wrestling with myself, the Lord revealed some things to me. The verse does not say that "Those who know what the Lord's plan is will not be disappointed."  Its made me realize that if I knew the Lord's plan, i probably would be fully content in his ways. Recently, I heard a speaker who said  the following quote:


 "God's will is what you and I would choose if we had all the information God has." ~Tom Yeakley


Thus, if my hope is based only on what I think God's plan should be rather than trusting that He has a plan better than my thoughts and ways, disappointment can happen.


This leads me to recognize that the verse also does not say "Those who hope in the outcome of circumstances will not be disappointed."


When I really think through all this I realize, the outcome of circumstances is what I've been hoping in rather than the character of the God of Heaven and Earth. In reflecting on this, I realized, circumstances can and will disappoint us sometimes, but that's not what I am to hope in either. 


Those who hope in THE LORD will not be disappointed. That is the person of Christ, the Character of God. Because think about this for a minute. 

God's Character includes (this is by no means a comprehensive list):

• Unfailing Love (Psalm 13:5)
• Unfathomable Understanding (Isaiah 40:28)
• Unlimited Patience ( 1 Timothy 1:16)
• Immeasurable Ability (Ephesians 3:20)
• Unbelievable Plans (Jer 29:11)

And really...that's just the tip of the iceburg. 


In light of this, Hoping in the Lord does prove to lead to amazement and adventure and excitement and joy. And these words don't really go with disappointment.

This Blog Brought To you by God's Character, not Circumstantial Outcomes.

Billy Ray, Toilet Fixer

Last night I was on campus at 10:30  finishing up freshman bible study when I get a call.

In a very calm voice my roommate says, "Hi, We have a little bathroom issue."

My first reaction, toilet needs plunged. So I say, "Don't worry I'll be home in a few minutes and we can figure it out."

To which she replies, actually the hose from the toilet has come unattached and water is spurting everywhere. I kinked the hose and there is water all over the floor..it's a flood. Realizing this is a bigger deal than I thought I smartly say,  "Uhhh....maybe you should try to call the front desk."

I get home, rush up the stairs and walk in the door, "Hello?"  Expecting roomate's voice I hear a deep southern male voice say "Hello..I'm here in the bathroom." Oh! Ok..so service guy is here.

So I walk around the corner and no joke, Billy Ray Cyrus the Plumber comes out holding a snake tube, carrying a wet-vac and wearing a big silver cross around his neck. He is complete with mullet. It was all I could do not to grab my guitar and ask him to sing his one time hit wonder "Achey Breaky Heart." Poor guy...Top of the Charts in the 90's to Toliet fixing in 2011.

At this point he needs to go down to the truck to get another part and I find my roomate who is trying to recover from traumatic toilet experience carrying her wet clothes and sopping wet.  Poor Roomie! She tells me the traumatic story of toilet bursting and we die laughing about how the plumber looks like Billy Ray!

Needless to say, the toliet is now fixed, Billy Ray left at 11:30. I half expected him to tip his proverbial cowboy hat at me.

I then proceeded to stew over the humor that just happened. And then, because its after 11 o clock and somehow the synapses in my brain get more creative at this point, I get a vision. Not like a real vision from God or anything, just one that makes me crack up! And I proceed to connect my Bible study on Noah to Billy Ray the Plumber. The end result is this picture, which I drew, and left for my roommate to find in the morning before work.

Here's to you Billy Ray and to Noah who chose to walk with God without worrying about his future...or his bathroom plumbing.

This blog entry brought to you by the 90's hit song "Achey Breaky Heart."

Need of the Hour

Feeling hopeful and expectant of this new year, which is well under way, I have many thoughts of how to live differently, live wiser, live more. Not only these thoughts, but I have been thinking alot about what are we living for exactly.


In light of this, I decided to listen to a very old lecture/sermon from a man who in his day, pin pointed well not only what he was living for, but really what is worth living for. The lecture is titled "The Need of the Hour"; the man, Dawson Trotman. (http://turret2.discipleshiplibrary.com/AA065.mp3)

Some know him as the founder of a large Christian ministry called the Navigators. Some know him as a man that drowned tragically in his 50's saving a drowning girl from a lake. But more than his accomplishments and death, his life is one to be observed, admired and modeled as he was a man that "took God at His word and staked all he had on His promises."


What stuck out to me most as I listened to his sermon is that not only did He pray...He prayed BIG. And not only did He pray BIG..but He saw the fruition of many of his prayers. He prayed that God would send people to labor in all 50 states..and 3 or 4 years later..he could track men he had influenced in every state. He also prayed over a world map, and now, not even 60 years after his ministry started, there are ministries that came out of his influence, in at least 110 of 195 countries throughout the globe.

And this spurs me on to think, what can I pray for? What is something beyond my imagination that God can do? And do I believe Him to do it?


"The world is before you. How big is your Faith? The Need of the Hour is men [and women] who want what Jesus Christ wants and believe He wants to give them the power to do what He has asked. Nothing in the world can stop those men [and women]. Do you believe it? Do you want to be one of them? You may. But you have to ask." ~Dawson Trotman

I want to trust God like this in 2011.

Seen and Unseen

In the last week, I've been challenged with wanting more. I know I named this blog, living for more, but honestly, this week, I've wanted the other kind of more. The kind of more that comes from material posessions and seeming financial security offered by these things. As I type this, I scrunch my nose and cringe at myself.

I've honestly thought this week that If I had 1000 more dollars in the bank, new plates in my cabinet, a larger place to live, a microwave and a printer, a plane ticket to DC, my life would be better. I'd be happy. I'd be less stressed. I'd be content.

Until this verse is called to mind.

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor 4:18

In reading this verse, I was stopped in my tracks. That combined with a freshman guy from a retreat I recently attended.

The guy said "..we don't need fancy cars, new shoes, or a big house to be content. What's the point? The only true contentment comes from God. This is the first time in my life that I've realized it, and I just want more than those other things have to offer."

So, I had a good talk with God and realized, its true. This kid had found the secret and cut me to my heart with something I've known for years but lost sight of. To invest in things that last is true joy! Everything else is temporary. Things are temporary. Living situations are temporary. Prosperity in the economy, furniture, dishes...temporary, temporary, and oh yes..temporary!

Microwaves and printers aside, I want what Jesus serves and have decided I need to see the  temporary as temporary and crave the eternal. That I need to trust God for provision, not stuff. And I need to be content in the joy of the Lord, and not compare myself to other single adults in my age bracket that are better off in those temporary things than me.

Oh that I would have that perspective always!

This blog brought to you by grandmother's old pot that heats stuff up on the stove just great.:)

45 Year Reunion

I'm currently sitting at Panera (mostly working, but also eavesdropping:) ) Next to me are three men in their 60's, I'd guess. When I first got here, there was just one. We exchanged hellos as I settled into the table next to him. 

"I'm getting ready to see a couple guys I haven't seen in 45 years," he said to me. About three weeks ago, he went to his gym and saw a young guy, about 25, who looked just like his old friend. He asked the young guy what his last name was, and realized it was the son of his long lost high school buddy. 

So that snowballed into this meeting of three 60-something year old men, getting together at Panera on a Tuesday morning. 

Their conversation is funny. "You have kids?"..."Remember that girl? She married some goofy guy from Milwaukee!"... "You're a bookkeeper?"... "How 'bout that football game at the end of our senior year!"... "Remember, when we'd fight people outside that church?"..."Oh yea, that guy Joe! Whatever happened to Joe?!"

As they talk, I've been realizing that all people want connection with other people.

Whether 60 year old men, or the dozens of freshman that are new on campus this week, all are looking for a group to belong in, a friend to talk to, or someone to shoot the breeze with to make this world a less lonely, more meaningful place.

Why is it so important to be connected to people from your past or your present?

Is it because we are made for relationship? Is it because people are realizing in the recession that relationships are more important than success? What do you think?

These thoughts brought to you by Panera Coffee.

Living for more, Feeling like a Kid

Walking through this crazy thing we call life, I am often intrigued. Intrigued by people, situations, books, interactions, humorous encounters, laughable moments, nature, and travels. In all these things, I'm reminded that these are only hints of what is to come.  Recently I was reminded that "what is seen is temporal, what is unseen is eternal." It reminds me that these hints come from The One and Only, the God, Jesus whom I follow. That these instances are reflections from the unseen making there way into this life. And I'm reminded in my heart..yes..the living for More is where I want to be. And I strive to Live for More than is seen by my eyes.

The side note of this is that I am a girl with adventures. These adventures don't always seem adult like, even though I'm 30. And as I learn to live and walk in life, be responsible, be grown-up, I sometimes stop and laugh at how I don't always feel like an adult, but a kid, enjoying life and people, without cares in the world.